To all you haters....

To all you haters out there in this world I’m done with you all.  That’s been my train of thought the last year and some months – most of those haters weren’t friends but strangers who looked at me in a strange way.  Do I look funny?  NOOO

Well those people made me stronger.  A year and 2 months ago I was someone else – I’ve always had good self-esteem but it was at its low.  In the last year I’ve gained a lot of my old self back.  It’s taken a lot of hard work but I feel comfortable within my own skin. 

Sept 2007 I weighed in at not my heaviest but 5lbs shy of that.  To date, I’ve lost 56lbs in a year in 2 months.  I’m at a weight that I haven’t seen since high school or maybe younger.  I’m 25lbs shy of my goal weight!  I’m also 6lbs over my initial goal of losing 50lbs by my 10 year high school reunion (which takes place in 2011!!! =).   

So am I happy??? HELL yeah! 

I know I haven’t posted in ages but it’s been a struggle…losing weight is not easy.  Maybe that’s why I didn’t do it in the past! Hahaha But in all honesty, I’m glad I took this challenge on, I’m happy with myself. 

So recap of the last 3 weeks…

1. Tonsil surgery
2. Broke things off with my bf
3. Lost 15lbs
4. Living life!!!

So to anyone that doesn’t have faith in themselves in regards to doing anything in life…DO IT! Take a chance, believe in yourself and when others don’t – prove them wrong!

WHOA! I haven’t posted in ages….a lot of things have changed…I’m taking more on at work, working 13 hr days sometimes in midst of training twice a week.  I’m maintaining my weight because I’m not able to train 4-6x a week but I’m content with that. 

I have a new person in my life who makes me smile and makes me proud to be who I am…its been just over two months already and it will be 2 months this weekend that we’ve been together.  If anyone knows me…I tend to push people away around this time so the next month is crucial.  

But I’m happy….

So yesterday our Director sent out a link to a website that has a picture of my coworker and I. First, the picture is distorted, 2^nd I’m 40lbs lighter, 3^rd I fuckin hate the old me. 

http://www.sustainability.uci.edu/events.html

Seriously, why didn’t anyone knock some sense into me before?  I know it’s a mental change in life and if I really want it – I had to do it.  But seriously, now…if someone told me, “ANTO, you’re getting a lil big.  Maybe you should start working out or eating right.”  Maybe I would’ve thought about it and started changing my life back in April instead of waiting till September.  Seriously, people tell their friends that they drink too much, or acted like a fool, why don’t we tell our friends that DUDE YOU’RE FAT! 

Just a thought to put out there- this world is soo damn PC now that no one wants to offend their friend!?!?!?

I really can’t look at old photos of myself because I cry inside.  I seriously never want to be that big again because it’s soo painful.  Right now I’m fighting the fact that I’m losing all this weight and having to buy new clothes every other week.  But I seriously like buying clothes that are smaller than what I was 9 months ago.  It’s amazing…my director said that I should be proud of myself, to see those photos and see where I am today.  Yeah it’s true, but gosh I want to puke!  I was looking at photos of when I went down to visit Monica, with Tim and Tiff- and honestly, why didn’t I see something then.  Even pictures in December – I’m like whoa!  It’s amazing how far I came and I know I should be proud but I wish I had that wake up call a lot sooner. 

I guess things happen for the right reason….as Lalo told me the other day…it’s about the small choices in life that one makes that can really control your whole life.  It’s so true…should I eat this or that? Should I drink this or that? 

I guess it helps having someone in your life that understands you and supports you as well.  Never would I have thought about that last sentence…who me?  But yeah, he’s a keeper. I'm happy with him and as Priya says he's happy with me =)

Whoo Hoooo

September 3^rd: 31
September 19^th: 29
October 9^th: 23
October 16^th 21
October 22^nd: 19
October 25^th: 16.5
November 6^th: 16
November 7th: 14
Novemeber 16th: 13
December 8^th: 12
December 10^th: 11
December 24^th: 14.5
December 29^th: 9.0
December 31^st: 11.5
January 2^nd: 10
January 3^rd: 7.5
February 25^th: 6
February 27^th: 1.5
February 28^th:  99
April 16^th: 91

Whoo hoooo 40 lbs since September 3^rd!!!!!!! Going on 7 months…..

So now that I lost my 40lbs I can go get my hair done!!! Whoo hooo Can’t wait!!! No more long hair!

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Other things in my life are going great...gosh! I love it...and I'm happy for once =)

Turning 25

whoo hoo...

This weekend has been a blast!!!  Well not really but its ok.

Stop Loss: amazing!
Shopping: GREAT got my 1st Dodger jersey =)
Applebees: Frustrating!  5 Margaritas but drama at the end
Dodger game: FREAKin awesome----

Tomorrow will be a whole different story---OPENING DAY at the DODGER GAME!  What a 25th Birthday to look forward too =)

GLUCK Priya on the new job =)